Introducing my System

Trigger Warning: Mention of suicide ideation and of sexual Alters


Hey everyone. I wanted to introduce my current System members. In time, some of them may wish to write their own blog posts here, but for now they are all willing to let me reveal who they are, what their role is in the System and a little bit about them.


So I'll start off with me.


Adults


Sapphire (she/her)

Meaning of name: Blue, Gemstone

  • Role: Host

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: 35 years old

  • Created: when the body was 9 years old

  • Favourite colour/s: Blue and Rose Gold

  • Favourite Activity/s: Art and Gaming


Role Definition: My role as Host means I'm the one who Fronts the most often and I deal with day to day living.


A bit about me: My name is Sapphire. I am not the 'original', or first core personality, but I am the permanent Host of the System. The first core personality was called Linda and she integrated and fused in November of 2019 after collapsing emotionally and mentally. Originally I was a Fragment (See the post about Alter Roles and Terminology). I was created when Linda was 9 years old and my single role was the management of memories. I was an Alter to the original Gatekeeper.


I enjoy reading and listening to music and writing. I have plans to study psychology and specialise in Dissociative Disorders. I have a deep passion for helping to spread awareness, remove stigma and educate people on Dissociative Disorders, especially D.I.D. I also want to help people who have this disorder to better understand it and work towards healing, however that looks for the individual.


I have legally changed my name from Linda to Sapphire. As a System, we have unanimously agreed that, whatever happens, the body will always be known as Sapphire.


Axel-Zane (Non-Binary, but uses he/him pronouns)

Meaning of name: Axel: Father is Peace, Zane: Gift from God

  • Role: Gatekeeper

  • Age: Ageless

  • Created: when body was very young. Possibly second Alter created

  • Favourite Colour: Grey

  • Interesting Fact: Very Formal and Polite. A real gentleman


Role Definition: His role is simply to manage switching, fronting and internal disputes. He also has access to all the memories, although he doesn't dig around in them unless he has to. He is usually the one to welcome new Alters to the System and help them understand their role.


The Watcher (Non-Binary)

  • Role: Chronicler

  • Age: Ageless

  • Created: Unknown

  • Interesting Fact: No-one in the System has ever seen their face


Role Definition: Not fully known but possibly to document important events in our life.


Jasmine (Jas) (she/her)

Meaning of name: Gift from God

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: 24

  • Created: 2021

  • Interesting Fact: Likes Grunge Goth.


Role Definition: A Protector’s role is simply to protect the System from danger both internally and externally. As DID is normally a covert disorder, this is essential for survival. Once the System becomes overt, it’s not as needed as everyone works together to keep the entire System safe from threats as anyone would in the real world.


Cal (he/him)

Meaning of name: Devotion

  • Role: Protector

  • Role: Unknown

  • Age: 35

  • Created: Unknown


Sally (she/her)

Meaning of name: Princess

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: 44

  • Created: Unknown


“Linda” (she/her)

Meaning of name: Beautiful

  • Role: Trauma-Holder

  • Fragment

  • Age: 23

  • Created: When the body was 23


A Fragment is a partially formed Alter who usually holds a single memory, trauma or experience


Nadia (she/her)

Meaning of name: Hope

  • Role: Sexual Protector

  • Age: Unknown

  • Created: Unknown


Natalie (she/her)

Meaning of the name: Birth of the Lord

  • Role: Care-Giver

  • Age: Unknown

  • Created: Unknown


Middles/Teens


Jake (he/him)

Meaning of name: Supplanter

  • Role: Persecutor

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: 16

  • Created: 2020

  • Favourite Colour: Black

  • Favourite Activity: Gaming

  • Interesting Fact: Emo/Grunge. Has strong London/Essex accent (we've never been to Essex!)


Role Definition: A Persecutor is an Alter who believes that the only way to keep the System safe is to harm the body, the Alters or other people (in some cases). They often carry so much trauma that they simply want the pain to end, and they have unhealthy coping mechanisms. Sometimes, they believe that if they can cause the Host or other Alters to fear them more than the original abuser, then there will be no cause to fear the abuser at all. Generally, if Persecutors can learn healthier ways to manage their pain, they can go on to become strong Protectors. Jake is in in this process of becoming a Protector.


JC (she/her)

  • Role: Care-Giver

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: 16

  • Created: 2020

  • Interesting Fact: Jake’s twin

  • Interesting Fact: Likes Steampunk Goth


Note: To be a twin of an Alter, generally it just means they were created at the exact same time.


Role Definition: Care-Givers are Alters who provide a much needed service of soothing Alters inside the System. Alters are usually very traumatised and upset and can have panic attacks on a regular basis. Care-givers have the ability to be very calm and soothing and rational, which is absolutely essential.


Jason (he/him)

Meaning of name: Gift of Healing

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: 18

  • Created: When the body was 12 years old

  • Interesting Fact: Jason (I have his permission to say this) is 100% gay.


Neasha-Leigh (she/her)

Meaning of name: Neasha: Just. Leigh: Meadow

  • Role: Unknown

  • Age: 14

  • Created: Unknown

  • Interesting Fact: Avid gamer. Our gaming handle is Neashaleigh for most games.


Charlie (she/her)

Meaning of name: Free man

  • Role: Innocent

  • Age: 15

  • Created: 2019


Role Definition: Sometimes an Innocent Alter is formed to preserve a section of life from trauma. This carefree Alter should be nurtured and not allowed to share in the horrors of trauma that the other Alters have had to witness.


Littles


Grace (she/her)

  • Role: Innocent

  • Age: 15 months (growing)

  • Created: 2020


Hope (she/her)

  • Role: Innocent

  • Age: 15 months (growing)

  • Created: 2020

  • Interesting Fact: Grace's twin


Maddie (she/her)

Meaning of name: Unmarried woman

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 3

  • Created: Unknown

  • Interesting Fact: Maddie LOVES ice-cream and sparkly toys. She is also highly intelligent for her age and can often hold very intellectual conversation.


Feury (she/her)

  • Role: Persecutor

  • Role: Sexual Protector

  • Role: Sexual Persecutor

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 9

  • Created: Unknown but probably when the body was a teenager


Feury is a troubled little girl and has regressed back to a 9-year-old. I believe she was older when she was created but the horrors she has witnessed were too much for her to contain.


Nina (she/her)

Meaning of name: God was gracious

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 4

  • Created: Unknown


Melanie (she/her)

Meaning of name: Blackness

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Role: Persecutor

  • Age: 13

  • Created: Unknown


Libby (she/her)

Meaning of name: My heart

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 7

  • Created: When the body was 7

  • Interesting Fact: Until June 2021, Libby was selectively deaf and unable to talk due to trauma.


Mystique (she/her)

Meaning of name: Air of mystery

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 10

  • Created: Unknown



As always, thanks for reading and if you have any questions, please do ask!