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Introducing my System

Trigger Warning: Mention of suicide ideation and of sexual Alters


Hey everyone. I wanted to introduce my current System members. In time, some of them may wish to write their own blog posts here, but for now they are all willing to let me reveal who they are, what their role is in the System and a little bit about them.


So I'll start off with me.


Adults


1. Sapphire (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Blue, Gemstone

  • Role: Host

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: Body age

  • Created: when the body was 9 years old

  • Favourite colour/s: Blue and Rose Gold

  • Favourite Activity/s: Art/craft and Gaming


Role Definition: My role as Host means I'm the one who Fronts the most often and I deal with day to day living.


A bit about me: My name is Sapphire. I am not the 'original', or first core personality, but I am the permanent Host of the System. The first core personality was called Linda and she integrated and fused in November of 2019 after collapsing emotionally and mentally. Originally I was a Fragment (See the post about Alter Roles and Terminology). I was created when Linda was 9 years old and my single role was the management of memories. I was an Alter to the original Gatekeeper.


I enjoy reading and listening to music and writing. I have plans to study psychology and specialise in Dissociative Disorders. I have a deep passion for helping to spread awareness, remove stigma and educate people on Dissociative Disorders, especially D.I.D. I also want to help people who have this disorder to better understand it and work towards healing, however that looks for the individual.


I have legally changed my name from Linda to Sapphire. As a System, we have unanimously agreed that, whatever happens, the body will always be known as Sapphire.


2. Sophia (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Divine Wisdom

  • Role: Gatekeeper/Primary Protector

  • Role: Sexual Protector

  • Role: Ex-Persecutor

  • Age: 14-24

  • Created: When Linda was 11 years old

  • Interesting fact: Sophia is a Goth. She is sassy and outspoken and isn't afraid to tell people what she thinks. She often doesn't care about consequences. She's the first to front if someone is giving any of us a hard time. She doesn't take crap from anyone.

  • Favourite colours: Black and purple

Role Definition: Gatekeeper: To manage switching, fronting and internal disputes. She also has access to all the memories, although she doesn't dig around in them unless she has to. She is usually the one to welcome new Alters to the System and help them understand their role. She can also put Alters into a state of dormancy if necessary as well if a need arises and can prevent Alters from fronting in some instances.


3. The Watcher (Non-Binary)

  • Role: Chronicler

  • Age: Ageless

  • Created: Unknown

  • Interesting Fact: No-one in the System has ever seen their face


Role Definition: Not fully known but possibly to document important events in our life.


4. Cal (He/Him)

Meaning of name: Devotion

  • Role: Protector

  • Role: Unknown

  • Age: 35

  • Created: Unknown


5. Sally (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Princess

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Role: Fragment

  • Age: 23

  • Created: 1999


A Fragment is a partially formed Alter who usually holds a single memory, trauma or experience

6. Saph (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Shortened version of Sapphire

  • Role: Unknown

  • Age: Same as body

  • Created: Unknown


7. Dana (She/Her)

Meaning of name: God is my judge

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: Slider: Little to body age

  • Created: 2022


8. Hazel (She/Her)

Meaning of name: The Hazel Tree

  • Role: Internal Helper/Soother

  • Age: 24

  • Created: 2022


9. Seraphina (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Fiery/Burning

  • Role: Persecutor

  • Age: Same as body

  • Created: 2022


10. Halo (They/Them)

Meaning of name:

  • Role: Sexual Protector

  • Age: 24

  • Re-Created: 2022

  • Halo is a fusion of Nadia and Klarissa


11. Natalie (She/Her)

Meaning of the name: Birth of the Lord

  • Role: Care-Giver/Internal Soother

  • Age: 35

  • Created: 1991


12. Osiris (They/Them)

Meaning of name: Egyptian lord of the underworld/death

  • Role: Trauma Watcher

  • Age: Ageless

  • Created: 1976


13. Ghost (She/Her)

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Role: Anaesthetist

  • Role: Fragment

  • Age: Ageless

  • Created: Unknown

Interesting fact: Ghost is a ghost in the System and chooses not to talk.


14. Demoness (Ness for short) (She/Her)

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Role: Persecutor

  • Age: Around 18-24

  • Created: Mid teens

15. Astra (She/Her)

  • Role: Soother/Comforter

  • Species: Human/Cat hybrid

  • Age: Unknown

  • Created: 2022

Interesting fact: Alters can be anything that the mind can create, whether that is human, non-human, or anything in-between. Whatever the person needed at the time the Alter was created. At the time Astra was created, we were in deep distress and needed soothing comfort, and we always found our actual cat comforting; the sound of her purring and the softness of her fur, so our mind created a cat-like Alter to be that comfort within our mind.


16. Shadow (She/Her)

  • Role: Unknown

  • Age: Unknown

  • Created: Unknown

17. Onyx (He/Him)

  • Role: Unknown

  • Age: Unknown

  • Created: Unknown

19. Mara (She/Her)

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: Young Adult

  • Created: 2022

20. Dark (They/Them)

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: Unknown

  • Created: Unknown

Interesting fact: Dark has the ability to shape-shift inner world to a mist form, which can shield Alters from danger or hide their activities from prying eyes.



Middles/Teens


21. Jake (He/Him)

Meaning of name: Supplanter

  • Role: Ex-Persecutor

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: 16/Ageless

  • Created: 2020

  • Favourite Colour: Black

  • Favourite Activity: Gaming

  • Interesting Fact: Emo/Grunge. Has strong London/Essex accent (we've never been to Essex!)


Role Definition: A Persecutor is an Alter who believes that the only way to keep the System safe is to harm the body, the Alters or other people (in some cases). They often carry so much trauma that they simply want the pain to end, and they have unhealthy coping mechanisms. Sometimes, they believe that if they can cause the Host or other Alters to fear them more than the original abuser, then there will be no cause to fear the abuser at all. Generally, if Persecutors can learn healthier ways to manage their pain, they can go on to become strong Protectors. Jake is in in this process of becoming a Protector.


22. JC (She/Her)

  • Role: Care-Giver

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: 16

  • Created: 2020

  • Interesting Fact: Jake’s twin

  • Interesting Fact: Likes Steampunk Goth


Note: To be a twin of an Alter, generally it just means they were created at the exact same time.


Role Definition: Care-Givers are Alters who provide a much needed service of soothing Alters inside the System. Alters are usually very traumatised and upset and can have panic attacks on a regular basis. Care-givers have the ability to be very calm and soothing and rational, which is absolutely essential.


23. Jason (He/Him)

Meaning of name: Gift of Healing

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: 18

  • Created: When the body was 11 years old


24. Neasha-Leigh (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Neasha: Just. Leigh: Meadow

  • Role: Protector

  • Age: 14

  • Created: 1987

  • Interesting Fact: Avid gamer. Our gaming handle is Neashaleigh for most games.


25. Charlie (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Free man

  • Role: Innocent

  • Age: 15

  • Created: 2019


Role Definition: Sometimes an Innocent Alter is formed to preserve a section of life from trauma. This carefree Alter should be nurtured and not allowed to share in the horrors of trauma that the other Alters have had to witness.


26. Candy (She/Her)

  • Role: Innocent

  • Age: 14-15

  • Created: Unknown


Littles



27. Faya (They/Them)

Meaning of name:

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 6/Ageless

  • Re-Created: 2022

  • Interesting Fact: Faya is a fusion of Feury and Maddie


28. Terra (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Earth

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 11-13

  • Created: 1987-1988


29. Nina (She/Her)

Meaning of name: God was gracious

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 4

  • Created: 1979/80


30. Melanie (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Blackness

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Role: Persecutor

  • Age: 13

  • Created: 2021


31. Libby (She/Her)

Meaning of name: My heart

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 7

  • Created: When Linda was 7 years old

  • Interesting Fact: Until June 2021, Libby was selectively deaf and unable to talk due to trauma.


32. Mystique (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Air of mystery

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 11

  • Created: When Linda was 7 years old


33. Pippy (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Horse lover

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 7

  • Created: When Linda was 7 years old


34. Elsie (She/Her)

Meaning of name: God is perfection

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 8

  • Created: When Linda was around 7 years old

35. Esther (She/Her)

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: Unknown

  • Created: Unknown

36. Emily (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Rival

  • Role:

  • Age: 2

  • Created:

37. Grace (She/Her)

  • Role: Innocent

  • Age: 3

  • Created: 2020

  • Interesting fact: Twin to Hope

38. Hope (She/Her)

  • Role: Innocent

  • Age: 3

  • Created: 2020

  • Interesting fact: Twin to Grace

39. Nareena (She/Her)

Meaning of name: Sea Princess

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Role: Fragment

  • Age: 12

  • Created:

40. Emily (She/Her)

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 2-4

  • Created: Unknown

41. Alec (She/Her)

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 4-6

  • Created: Unknown

Interesting fact: Alec is mute


42. Precious (She/Her)

  • Role: Trauma Holder

  • Age: 7-12

  • Created: Unknown







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